i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
                                    i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

ee cummings

It is great to awaken to the newness of each day. Even as my eyes slowly adjusted to the tiny molecules of dust reflecting in the sun streaming through my window, I realized again the day was mine. A clichéd “carpe diem” was my first thought. This was followed by rapid blinking. So be it. This monster continues to seize each and every single day before her. ALSO SEE:               http://www.flickr.com/photos/themonster/              for snapshots!

A good friend of mine wrote the below about my namesake on October 7, 2003 at 2:31p.m. It so lucidly expressed the why of my namesake I felt the testimonial worthy of posting. Insight into a little monster:

Monster - not as “misfortune” (Latin “monstrum”), but in another sense: “anything extraordinary, supernatural, or wonderful; a thing to be wondered at; a prodigy” (Century Dictionary, 1898). Monstrosity as a category works double-time — it “expresse[s] rather than violate[s] the created order of nature at the same time that it expresses a singularity, a fundamental difference that challenges rather than supports dominant conceptions of order”. This contradiction is, if I may say so, Mici’s very heart: like the etc., she is part and parcel of rational organizational schemata; at the same time, the very miscellaneous quality of her particular monstrosity cuts to the heart of, with a defiant challenge to, order. In this sense, her primary function is interruption by way of what Emmanuel Levinas identifies as “skepticism, an affront (such as can only be introduced by way of monstrosity) to the violent logics of State and closure”. All this is another way of saying that Mici is the shadow that follows philosophy, only to challenge its authority by way of a radicalized alterity that cannot be consumed by the Same.

by Nathan Austin (Works cited: “Century Dictionary and Cyclopedia”, 1898 edition. “Wonders and the Order of Nature” by Lorraine Daston and Katharine Parks. “Otherwise Than Being, or, Beyond Essence” by Emmanuel Levinas.)